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[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<td [...] %>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <tr><td colspan="2" width="100%" bgcolor="#6CA6CD"% %color:weak_back% %" class="comments" style="text-align: center"> <a href="http://onbrokenwings1.livejournal.com/8466.html?mode=reply"><b>mean thoughts?</b></a> </td></tr> hello... [07 May 2005|11:14pm] [ mood | artistic ] [ music | Acapella Defying Gravity (Davey's way) ] i just got out of the shower. it's about 11:15. my parents are yelling at me about school and a job and things to that nature. i think that i'm safe to say that this new year (2005) i've already learned a lot more about myself. actually, let's make that time period longer, the last six months or so, there's been a lot of growth on my part, in my opinion. i've just been...if this is the right word...more involved in a way. but by involved i don't mean extracurricular activities & community service but just concerning life in general. i'm emotionally involved, physically involved, and intellectually interested in things that a year or two ago, i wouldn't imagine have any sort of knowledge about.i have people to thank for that. i feel as for once, i have a choice. i'm almost out of highschool and there's no longer that dictating feeling of what i can and can't do, i mean, everyone can say that "you've had choices your whole life" but that's not true when it comes to school and your parents, you're limited. but in a little less than a month, i'll be open to a whole new section of my life and that's nice to look forward too. i'm sure i'll be dragging everything with me through it, and that's a nice feeling as well. oh what i'd give to be able to see how things will be in five years, ten years, fifteen years....but really if i was given that chance, i'm not so sure i'd take it. just because, well, then there's no fun. okay, how about i get to see, and if i'm happy with it, it gets erased from my memory but it's still the same and if i don't like it, then i can change it. sneaky. so change of subject due to the instant case that just occured... i think that when it comes to your family, they should be a support system that you can trust. and by support system, i mean both survivial wise as well as emotionally. you shouldn't have to worry about them putting you down for some unknown reason or any type of abuse to any effect/affect....i'm not so sure of my homonymns right now. (sorry mrs.thompson i forgot that big chart...oh the 1st and 2nd grade) i shouldn't have to worry when i leave my house that my room is going to be invaded, rearranged, then when i confront someone about it worry about being lied too. there shouldn't be a worry of my parents and sisters going behind my back calling my friends to find out exactly what is going on and for how long. there should be some level of trust and privacy. i admit, maybe i have some blame for things being this way but not to the extent of it. i've tried to be nice and abide by the rules i was given, but they aren't happy with it. my mom is annoying and on my back about everything every two seconds. it could be worse and this sounds dramatic probably to the few who are reading it but this is my struggle so there. the more i think about it right now sitting in this chair....my parents are my parents but there just people as well. my sisters are just people. if they aren't going to help me, why stick around and put up with it. sometimes i wonder. back to the positive side... i'm thankful for how this past year or year and a half has worked out and i'm looking forward to the next months to come for some reason. call my corny, but i just believe now that good things can last and not all have to come to an end. that's it for now, i suppose. :) goodnight.

[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<td [...] %>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <tr><td colspan="2" width="100%" bgcolor="#6CA6CD"% %color:weak_back% %" class="comments" style="text-align: center"> <a href="http://onbrokenwings1.livejournal.com/8336.html?mode=reply"><b>mean thoughts?</b></a> </td></tr> and so it is... [26 Apr 2005|12:23pm] [ mood | content ] [ music | that good stuffff ] ::yawn:: time for the once or twice a year update. (exaggeration) so let's think, what has been going on? there have been up and downs like whoa in the past few weeks. let's take this one step at a time though... first of all... the fighting with my parents have calmed down to almost non-existance with the dumb little fights here and there. since the initiation of there "contract" which i have yet to sign, some sort of civil-ness has been found. i don't have to worry about my deposit being paid on time or anything. this leads me to my next deposit on here... college... as far as college is concerned, this wednesday i am going to my top three choices of schools and deciding where i will be attending this fall. 1) NYU - the top choice but most unrealistic when it comes to pricing. and on top of that, my first two years would be me doing what they tell me to do until my third year when i declare a major. 2) Fordham Lincoln Center then 3) Pace University... i don't know. we'll see how things pan out. as far as what i'm going to college for, there have been a lot of things going through my head. my all time dream mmm film scoring but that's going to take a lot of work considering i haven't touched music since middle school, if i can even take that into account. i guess we'll see over these next few years. then there's the other major, english. i think i'm deciding on a double major, lots of work, i know but what are you going to do, right? enough about college. wednesday will be the deciding factor. i'm content with how things are right now. and by right now, i mean right this second, writing on my livejournal. i've gotten to a point with highschool that i don't want to be there anymore. the only reason i will be attending is to graduate to be able to live in manhattan come the fall. i don't even want to think about leaving half of the people here so i won't talk about that.... as far as my friends are concerned... i always knew that to a point, when highschool finished there would still be some small chance of that same annoying drama that we all went through in tenth grade to show it's ugly head once again and then again and then again and then again. then you try not to let it get to you but it does in some way and you resolve it but you know in the back of your mind that it will be back again to do what it does and it's all sort of the same repeated motions with different words about a different situation. as far as myself, i cut the string more than not. and by that i mean, when it comes to the point of repetition and annoyance, i let it go and move on. i've gone through about three groups of friends because they haven't respected me or didn't know how to live without the dumb fights and drama that they seemed to feed off of. there are a few people i know that i'll never have to worry about losing for two reasons 1) i want them to be around and 2) they want to be around. i hope they know who they are. i think they do. at this point in my life, i've found a constant. i'm looking at myself rihgt now and i'm realizing that there is a lot that could use improvement but for the most part i'm a good person. i am. some people would fight that statement to the death but it doesn't matter what they say because i know that i, david, am a nice, good person. i am in no way saying that i don't complain or fight or argue or are mean at certain times. but overall, i am a nice guy. people out there who think i'm this horrible person can go suck an egg because it is in no way the truth. i understand that this part of the entry is in no way modest, but i'm allowed to have a good sense of who i am. it's been a short time since the 9th and 10th grade, but there's been a drastic amount of growth in who i am and how i act. you may ask yourself reading this, why am i writing this? and i am asking myself that same question. this is my livejournal, that's what was on my mind. i have to go shower and do what's got to be done. i'll be back soon. later days.

[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<td [...] %>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <tr><td colspan="2" width="100%" bgcolor="#6CA6CD"% %color:weak_back% %" class="comments" style="text-align: center"> 1 cheap shots | <a href="http://onbrokenwings1.livejournal.com/8095.html?mode=reply"><b>mean thoughts?</b></a> </td></tr> it's about time... [24 Feb 2005|05:06pm] [ mood | Bi-polar? ha ] [ music | Colors of the Wind - Pocahontas ] everytime i update this, i always say "i'm going to keep up with this thing" so instead of saying that and not meaning it, i'm just going to not say it. anyways, i updated this thing and it was a nice long entry and then somehow it wasn't posted which annoyed me so i punished it by not using it, yeah, not because i just didn't feel like it hahaha. anyways, the following events are not going to be in any particular order, just as they come to me. i just got home from getting food with russell and chris. we went to checker's and then KFC...then on the hunt to get chris's bank card back, which happened which is good which is nice which is where i stop saying which. last night, i went to applebee's on north ocean. they re-did it. it was a nice time. okay, this might sound wierd, but like, it was just really good to just be okay this doesn't make sense to anyone. but just, how i see things, they're awesome. ha. so the run of scarlet pimpernel is almost done, yeah, i think that's a good thing. i've been to a lot of shows, yes, a lot of them. and i'm anticipating how fun seussical is going to be. yay yay yay fun fun fun. so what else? i got into UA (university at albany) which is nice, but i don't think that i want to go there. my sister is transferring there, which isn't the reason i'm not going, the reason is, i just don't want to go there haha. i've been having mixed feelings about college. on one hand, i want to be away from this house and like be able to do what i want when i want for as long as i want. but at the same time, i don't want to lose contact with some people, okay, i know i won't but i just don't want to have to be alone trying to make new friends. i've grown accustom to certain people and how things are, then at the end of august, it's going to just be thrown about. hopefully, NYU will give me a letter to look forward too. i don't know. at this point, i'm not too sure about my college career. full-time job? year off of college? sounds so tempting but i don't know if i could live in this house that much longer. at least then, i'll be 18 and my parents will absolutely no say on anything. i don't know. i don't want to think about college right now. let me finish high school. okay,i've reached a point where i just have to hmm in the most basic words, let go. just david, you really have to just stop caring about what other people think and let yourself go ha chenoweth, but really, i just have too. i don't know why i'm scared. well i do know why, and it only will make sense to me, well not just me. but i'm not getting into that on here. so what else? hmmmm.i'm talking to stacey smith right now. one time i told her we'd do lunch and then we actually did do lunch. haha. i have to see her more. oh lorraine + bye bye birdie = amazing stacey. TheFATPolka: well then, when you're done.. send me the link damnit EatJumboShrimp: okay whoa whoa meanie. TheFATPolka: ... meanie, i am not. TheFATPolka: excited, i am. alright. i think that's going to be it for now. later days. p.s. i hope it snows so much that school on monday is cancelled. p.p.s. i don't have anything to say here, i just wanted to say "p.p.s." JEM IS TRULY OUTRAGEOUS!

[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<td [...] %>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <tr><td colspan="2" width="100%" bgcolor="#6CA6CD"% %color:weak_back% %" class="comments" style="text-align: center"> <a href="http://onbrokenwings1.livejournal.com/7747.html?mode=reply"><b>mean thoughts?</b></a> </td></tr> oh...subject.. [09 Feb 2005|06:30pm] so this has been a work in progress, but i'm finishing it now.... so let's recap this week... friday - was the most boring day ever. i didn't do anything that night but that's okay because it allowed me to stay out the next night haha. i plan it advance. but it was one of those borings that got you so mad until you realized what it was you were getting mad about then you weren't so mad after all. saturday - russell and chris picked me up, we went to panera but it was too crowded so we went down the street to quizno's then baskin robbins mmmm. after that, i went to CM and waited for pimpernel (chris's show) to start to see it. i met up with mira. it was nice seeing her back from college. we had a nice talk. the show was good. funny, even at the parts that weren't meant to be funny but were still funny to me. sunday - hmmm sunday. hahaha, well i slept over chris's that night...i think...wait, did i? yeah. i did. and the next morning, we met up with val and russell and off to see pimpernel again. afterwards, went to get food, coldstone, then superbowl at val's house. i was disappointed at the halftime show. it was...let's say...eventful. i don't like arguments, but it happens. that's about it. i had to go home at 11, sooo i did. TODAY MEANING TODAY TODAY WEDNESDAY..... i had the best joke...well...not best...but it made me and maggie laugh for no reason...okay...so we're in the bagel store...we're all at a table but maggie is on a stool...and behind her...is a garbage that is labeled "WASTE" so i turn to maggie, and say "maggie, stop graffiting your name on everything you see" and she turned around...and there it was....okay it wasn't that funny but it was.

[Error: Irreparable invalid markup ('<td [...] %>') in entry. Owner must fix manually. Raw contents below.] <tr><td colspan="2" width="100%" bgcolor="#6CA6CD"% %color:weak_back% %" class="comments" style="text-align: center"> 1 cheap shots | <a href="http://onbrokenwings1.livejournal.com/7545.html?mode=reply"><b>mean thoughts?</b></a> </td></tr> a new leaf... [01 Feb 2005|10:24pm] [ mood | pleased ] [ music | "laughter-e-er-e-er-e-er" + piano ] i noticed today in school that when i write with different pens and pencils, my handwriting changes. isn't that cool? okay, that happens to everyone, to a certain extent. i'm on the search for any talent, i'll go with what i find. geeze. things get tough sometimes but it's worth it. it's great how no one knows what that's in reference too. and by tough, i don't actually mean tough, just difficult, well wrong word again. let's just say, schedules don't match up and it can be sad, but i think it's kept good. :) very good. so i have some clever schemes under way. they're going to be great, if they hold well and stay how i plan. that reminds me, that i really need a job. big time. money money money i need i need i need. i can't wait until friday. i need my night. i need my weekend. i have to shave. i think i should tonight to avoid the task in the morning but i really don't want too and i absolutely hate doing it. i know i'm going to end up doing it tonight. so i went to the doctor's today. i got my antibotics. amoxcillin? is that what it was called. big white pills. that's it for tonight. a short one, but that's alright. i hate how i don't have control over everything!! not saying that i need control over everything but sometimes people's lives could be better if they could control that things that are uncontrollable...like work schedules ;) haha no worries. goooodnight.

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